Gaming

 The world today is a very scary place. With everything going on, and issues that are now getting the attention they deserve, I truly do fear for my child's life. Right now he is safe with me at home in the middle of a pandemic, but I can't help to feel guilty for not putting him in an environment with other toddlers. I not only fear my baby getting sick but there's never a day where I don't see a story of a child being taken. I think all children are in danger these days. You have countless videos of babysitters abusing these little ones in their own homes. You have multiple stories of daycare providers abusing and killing kids that go to their daycare. The worst part is that there's nowhere you can go where this isn't happening. This is our world now. I have even already started thinking about homeschooling Skyler, but my son is the only one. The endless anxiety gets so tiring because I feel I have no capacity left in my brain for other things. I don't trust a soul with my child. There was a time when my family would be my first go-to, but due to the trauma I am still getting over, I don't want to risk Skyler being exposed to anything. Yes, people change and grow out of bad habits, but as an adult, believe me when I say, my family has shown that nothing has changed. I want to protect my son from everything because I value him as a person and not an object, there will come a time when I will ask his opinion on these things. I want to home-school him, but I will ask him when he's old enough to know what homeschooling is if that's something he would be interested in. You see the children that were born during covid 19 are a different breed due to the endless isolation we have been subjected to. I feel like my son is going to be very introverted because he is rarely around other children. I wasn't born an introvert, I grew into one. I was born an extrovert and used to be able to create deep relationships within minutes of knowing someone, but as I continued to meet people who hurt me, and I continued to hurt people, I created a safe haven in my mind that I only have access to when I am alone. This is something I have come to value. I have also discovered my niche for my social media now, and I will be posting about food, vido games and books. I was struggling with what I wanted to share with the world for awhile now. I know their are countless others out there with big followings, who naturally I would want to compete with, but its not a competition. I can prodivde views and interpretations about these topics thats different from their, which is what makes my content so unique. I have had my Nintendo Swith Lite for a little over a year and have really loved the games Nintendo offers. I am also getting an Xbox S this weekend, and would love suggestions on games related to StarDew Valley for the Switch. For the Xbox I have purchased COD, Sims 4, Injustuce 2, Overwatch and Grand Theft Auto 5. I really like games like these but I am new to Xbox world.

- Fin